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Newsflash, what we look like on the outside is NOT ENOUGH to sustain happiness, because happiness happens to be a super fickle emotion that changes as quickly as the wind. I still have stretch marks and cellulite and squishy knobby knees. I’m not happy 24/7 because I lost some weight or because I feel more confident in a bathing suit. But it took me over a year to find my January 26th. What did I expect to happen? Tight jeans? Yes please. I wasn’t choosing the best yes’s, the right no’s, or the best overall choices for my body, mind and soul. I wasn’t joyful because I wasn’t doing the things that bring me joy. I wasn’t able to see anything clearly because I was too bogged down in the mess. This present self wasn’t who God had made me to be.
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I didn’t feel like myself, and I knew the real me was just buried under all those layers of fried foods and pretending. My choices three months ago were like a disguise. That was my now.Īnd now, that day is my was, my past tense.
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It was laziness disguised as age or injury or not enough sleep or something that I would fix “tomorrow,” because today just seemed too hard. My own unwillingness to make sacrifices or to tell myself no. Nothing held me there except my own unwillingness to change. I allowed myself to stay in that place, yes, but I wasn’t stuck. And I can be a runner and a personal trainer and a “fitnessy” person and STILL FALL INTO UNHEALTHY CHOICES.īut here’s the thing. I was on a merry-go-round of poor choices that never seemed to slow down. It was freedom from lethargy and depression and anxiety over being stuck. It was freedom from my unhealthy choices. Not because I beat myself up for having a cookie or a hamburger once in a while, but because I KNEW that I was supplying a steady stream of unhealthy foods, which in turn caused me to begin to decay from the inside out.Īnd I know that may seem a bit extreme. I felt sad and weak and frustrated and defeated. It did not sooth me in a feel good kind of way, it just brought me lower. And as I fed myself junk, I felt worse, not better. So as I supplied junk, that’s what my body began to crave. Food became as much of an emotional attachment as a physical one. All of the foods I tried to reward myself with for surviving motherhood or making it through yet another crazy day or just because I felt I had earned it. It was freedom from all of the unhealthy vices. It was more than a physical transformation. It’s been so much more than weight loss.”Īnd now I’m crying all the ugly tears, because for me, this was so much more than just a workout program or a catalyst for weight loss. And SO many things just like this, “this process has transformed me physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. All the happy feels, and all the happy words. An assurance of what they are actually capable of because they stuck with something and completed it for over 80 days. Starting in a bit of a broken place, and walking away a little more whole, with a new sense of self. I’ve been able to watch their journey’s, their transformations, their stories. I followed the page so I would have a variety of people in my feed who were doing 80 day obsession. One of the first things I did when I started this program was to look up the hashtag on Instagram. He’s been my rock and I have an entire post built around that for later, because I could NOT have done this without him, so he deserves his own post.īut for now, how did I get here? And how do I even begin to unpack what this process has meant to me? When you just want cookies already.īut seriously though. And so annoyed that it’s being asked to sit there until 9pm instead of being devoured upon my waking up this morning. Round 1 of 80 Day Obsession is complete!!!!!īut then Rob told me he was going to be out of town until tonight, and that I couldn’t celebrate until he got home. The day is finally here!! It’s DAY 81!!!!!!!!!! I can’t even believe it’s April 26th, also affectionately known as “cookie day” on my calendar.
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